I don't know what I'm feeling. I just know it hurts so much. I guess it's the distance, but i'm scared. I'm so afraid.

The future scare me. Not having you scare me. Actually, I can say that everything scare me.

I disappointed myself 'cause all my life, people said to me "you are so strong, you are a fighter". Sorry, but no. I'm weak. Yes, I'm weak... It's not easy to face the truth, but I know I'm not made of iron.

Why I cry all the time? Why when all goes right?

And you...

I know you deserve somebody so much better... Somebody who don't care about future or life. Somebody who lives no mattering. It has been so hard to please you, and I fail. More and more... I swear I don't want to disappointed you. You know I was able to do everything for you, just to having your love. And believe me, I feel luckier to have you by my side, having somebody who cares about me. 'Cause actually, you're the boyfriend that every girls dream about. I don't want to loose you, you should know that loosing you would be bad. People say me I'm a believer when I talk about us, when I say we'll be together forever. But wherever, we know... just you and me.

Oh well, crying again...

It hurts so much, I'm suffering, but I swear I don't know why.

You already know it.